Last Night
July 26 noon

I had a nice evening with Niki yesterday. It was cool. I was just kinda sitting here talking to her, and out of the blue, she asked me to come over and swim. There is little that is more aesthetically pleasing than being at Niki's, especially in her pool at night with all the lights on, etc. Unfortunatley, as usual, her sister was a pain in arse, but eventually we had the pool to ourselves....until we got cold. She burned the "Save the last dance" soundtrack for me, but I forgot to take it home with me....grr. Damn, I love that movie.

Then, I drove by Linda's, to see that she was up, on the computer. I was excited, and wanted to talk to her. So I came home, got online, only to be told that she was going to bed. psssh, whatever...Don't you ever have moments where you just reeeally want to talk to a certain person...well, this happens a lot with Linda for me. I get the urge to talk to her all the time, about any little thing that pops into my head. The paradox of it all is that when we are together, we run out of things to say and bore each other beyond recognition...well, except when we're outside in the street making out...(nope, we still haven't actually done that)

Anyway, when I get an idea in my head, and am then crushed, it SUCKS, and I get all pissy and cranky. So, I felt like shit last night. It's gotta be hormones of some kind...grr. So I took it all out on this random guy online that wouldn't stop bothering me and begging me to send him a picture. I was really mean to this guy. I don't regret that. I don't give a shit about that. But I really regret not taking that cd home, for one, and for getting myself all worked up to talk to her. eh.

Today I am working at 3. I'm actually going to have some money when I get paid next Thursday. eee! Until then, I am carefully monitoring my checking account to be sure I don't bounce any checks, or over-debit myself. And I had to buy food yesterday...man, that was a bummer. I didn't want to do it...but I was sooo hungry, and had no other choice. Then, of course, I was out of gas, and had to spend even more money. What's with that? I'm so poor :-(

So, uh, now I'm just sitting here listening to kd lang, and whomever else is on this playlist, and getting ready to put on an away message, go upstairs and eat some brunch.