Mood Swings
July 27, 2001 11:11 a.m.

Man, I'm tired...My mom just came in to tell me how beautiful it is outside. Normally I'd care, but I'm exhausted. you'd think I wouldn't be, considering I just got up, but no such luck. I think my sleeping routine is catching up to me. And I would have slept later, but I have to work at 9 am tomorrow, and getting to bed at a reasonable hour this evening would be a good thing.

Yesterday was a strange day...(well not really that strange, but eh...)

Work was was crazy busy yesterday. And I was stuck at the service desk to face e very whining impatient customer ever known to man. I was mildly stressed. (element #1 in bad mood portion of day)

The other day I was randomly IMed by a girl from MTA. It was interesting. She seemed cool. But of course, I work with people from MTA, so she and I do have some common connections. Well, yesterday, Alexis came up to me and said: "So, you've been talking to my friend Kara?" I was kinda uncomfortable, but admitted to it. My discomfort was due to: a) they had talked about me, and I had no way of saying what was truly said, and b) nobody at work knows shit about me, and I was pretty much just outed...so...uh, yeah. (element #3)

THEN, later, Alexis came over to me and said "Kara was in here tonight..." So I'm thinkin' aw jeez...so now I'm being watched! That's not cool! I began to feel very paranoid. And beyond that, I began to deal with my own insecurities of why she wouldn't have come to talk to me. I was thinking "Am I really that hideous?" My only comfort being my little mantra (that I didn't really believe anyway): "Girls are not that shallow, girls are not that shallow..." (element #4)

So, I wanted to talk to Linda. Of course, when do I not have the urge to talk to Linda? But Linda wasn't online...bah (element #5)

But Kara was...So I talked to her. She explained that she hadn't said anything because she didn't want to feel stupid. It was an okay conversation. (element #1 of good mood portion of day)

And then Linda came online, and told me her house was empty. So I went over there, and we watched "Real Sex" on HBO...hehe, pretty interesting. (element #2)

Then I came home, played pinball, went to bed, and woke up multiple times because of strange dreams, ick. But...eh, it's okay, I suppose. I'm definitely thinking it's PMS.

Now it's morning, and I'm hungry.