How is it fair for my dad to ruin this?
August 3, 2001 1:54 p.m.

I'm pretty good. But I've been eating cheez-its and using the computer at the same time, so I'm afraid that my keyboard is going to be filled with crumbs now. My computer is getting worn in now. The little silver sticker that says "Designed for Microsoft windows 2000 professional windows Me" is rubbing off quickly and the top is all scratched because I accidentally put a chair on it....oops! It wasn't a heavy chair, thank goodness.

I had the urge to listen to "I want you to want me" sung by Letters To cleo when I got up this morning. Interesting. It's playing now, actually, which is why I thought to mention it, even though it's a fairly useless piece of information.

So, I have to be at work at 8:30 3 days this week. Eeew. That's too early for me, I have to say. But hey, I shouldn't be complaining. It is giving me about 35 hours. That's what I need to make it through the summer. So far I have managed to stick with my goal of putting away $100/wk. And therefor, I have virtually no spending money. gas is a bitch. When are they going to come out with solar powered cars? Come on! But there is an upside....I don't have to close at ALL this week. No more staying as late as the manager wants me to because the store isn't clean enough. Not like it's ever clean anyway!

Um, I'm really enjoying my mom today. In fact, for a few minutes earlier today I was thinking about how I wished I hadn't already made plans tonight, because I wanted to go grocery shopping with my mom. My Dad is an ASSHOLE though. He's been treating me like crap. He doesn't seem to have a problem with the fact that I am moving in 44 days, but he won't let me drive to Massachusetts. What is that? My mom says that it's a control thing. He's just saying no because he can. But he's really been a jerk lately. He does everything he can to make me mad. He is constantly going against my wishes and upsetting me and fighting with me. My mom says he did the same thing when my brother moved out. It's easier to say good bye to someone you don't get along with. Right. So that's good...make me go away always remember what an selfish asshole my father is, and how he can't even care enough about me to treat me decently for a month or so. It ruins my goodness. Other than that, everything is going well. He is the only thing that is getting to me right now. Man, I wish he'd suck it up and get some therapy or something. grr.

hehe, my goldfish, Sonata's roomate, sleeps vertically upside-down. I was watching him last night, amused. As of now, Sonata is chasing him around the tank. It's a very low speed chase though.

Jekyll and Hyde is playing in my background though. Gooood music.

I'm going to see Fame soon, that's cool

Monday I'm going to beach with Ellen, yay!

And damnit, today would have been a good day to go to Gloucester, it's hot and icky. But noooo, my Dad's an asshole, and Linda had to work, and then she got mad at me, and eh....it goes on and on.