Left Out
Wednesday, Aug. 29, 2001 23:01

Ok, this crazy guy at our church just called. It's 11 pm...is that appropriate? Especially since he just called to find out when choir is going to start this year. My Mom has been asleep for almost an hour. Man...

I had a good night at work. It was reeeally busy. Normally that would make me instantly PISSY, but it was okay tonight. Lynn was the manager. And no matter how much she bothers me a lot of the time, she's a damn good manager. She doesn't talk down to us or get irritable because she has a lot to deal with. She just takes it all in stride, keeps on top of everything, and helps us deal with it. Other managers are too worried about kissing her butt most of the time, and kissing their own the rest. But no, Lynn is good. Never let me say that she's not good at what she does. No matter how pissed off she can make me.

Work went by fast, and Niki came in to drop off the rolling stone with Angelina Jolie on the cover. Niki is one of my only friends that doesn't know that I like chics, but she knows that I like Angelina the actress. Man, there are good pictures in there...whew.

I got home and I was in a good mood. My dad was using the computer, and telling me about these three adorable baby racoons that were in our yard. I missed them, but I wish I hadn't. So, I sat and talked to my mom until the computer was free, then I entered my newly cleaned room, and sat down to relax.

Instantly I began to feel like shit. The internet is a bad bad place sometimes. I tend to be deprived of good moods here. Tonight it was the people I talked to though. I just feel so damn left out! They're in school, I'm not. They're in love, I'm not. They're going to Gloucester, I'm not. They're mothers are buying them all kinds of things, mine isn't. They're fucking up, and my feelings don't matter. I hate what school does to people. It was awful at the end of the year. Nobody had a spare second to think of anything but themselves and their school work. I feel it happening. I'm sure it's in my head, since today was the first day...but man. *sigh*

Thankfully I'm leaving in 2.5 weeks. My poor ego wouldn't be able to take much more than that.

And, I have to say it...It PISSES me off that she's bringing Andrew to Gloucester. I've wanted to go to Gloucester with her since we were dating. It's never happened. First it was Jenn, then Jeff, now Andrew...fucking pissy is what that is.

Ok, I'm done. Grr. I feel bitter and irritable, and sad.