Loving Emilia
Saturday, Sept. 01, 2001 21:47

I'm wearing this fabulous shirt that I got last week at Deb. It just screams: Cuddle with me! And that is what I want to be doing. I want to be cuddling. Somebody cuddle me, pleeeease!!! :-)

Lots to say...lots of energy...gonna forget something....hate that.

When I have lots to say, you know what I do? I go through and start every paragraph, as I have just done, to avoid forgetting anything. Hehe.

I was sitting there in the movie theater tonight, during the previews, and I suddenly remembered that I told Tiff I'd go see "O" with her on Wed. Ooops! Ouchie...can't believe I forgot. Hey, but we can see ANYTHING else! I'm up for it. And if she's set on "O" I'll see it again. It certainly wasn't bad at all...just not a favorite, or something I'd normally pay for twice.

I talked with my mum on the way home. We're getting there. Tonight we talked about issues, and emotions, just not our own. She kind of said some things about her relationship with my dad, and how she feels about things, but I didn't really say anything at all about myself. And she didn't seem to want more. I just want her to invite me to open myself up. I have been thinking about telling her about my....interest in girls lately. But, I don't know how to begin. And frankly, she doesn't seem like she cares about my inner workings enough. She loves me. She respects me. She supports me, but she doesn't know how to be emotionally intimate with me. And I understand that. And when I'm older, and stronger, we'll talk more. I'm not ready to make her do it yet.

Work was hellish today. But I enjoyed it. Justin was good today. This could be the source of my happiness. I've had such good experiences with people lately. Man...

speaking of which, I talked to Tom for a while yesterday. Nifty! I never really thought he talked at all...but we talked a lot at Katie's FH game. I also got to watch FH which I LOVE, and I got hugs from Katie, and got to see her beautiful excited smiley wonderfulness as she thanked me for the tap I made for her. Hehehe that made me feel good.

:-)

Life's happy! People kick so much ass right now! I feel warm. I feel cuddly. I just want to grab people and hold them.

During the movie, I kept feeling my shirt and getting all happy about how soft it was. And then thinking about cuddling, and happiness, and Linda and....aaah. It made me feel gooooood.

I miss Maggie. Maggie, I love you! (hmm...I wonder if she's still reading this, being the busy new teacher...you ROCK!)

And...I got some stuff in the mail from NU today. Welcome week stuff. more details. This is good. I like details. One of my little anal things. I need to know what things are like down to the smallest detail...it's just me.