Feelin' Groovy
Saturday, Sept. 08, 2001 23:27

Today has been a feel-good day.

People at work were great today. Today was my last day, so there was the wonderful, happifying well-wishing and "what are we going to do without you?"-comments. It was damn nice. Every night someone has to stay with the manager a few minutes later to close up. Tonight it was Justin, and I volunteered. I miss Justin. I like him a lot...sometimes. But I think I'm gonna try hard not to start talking to him online. Don't want to go up that road again. He made me feel happy though...excited about Boston, wishing me good luck, etc. But I already miss the asshole...crazy Emilia.

Besides that, the funniest thing happened at work tonight. This kid who used to go to my school applied at TJ Maxx. Well, it was relatively dead tonight, so I was looking at the application to entertain myself. On the back he listed his references. One of them was a teacher at LHS, but the name he had written down was "Brain Dude" in a really messy, child-like handwriting. I read that and just busted out laughing, realizing that he meant to write Brian Dube, a social studies teacher that I had for a couple classes. As I started laughing, a girl I work with, who goes to LHS now looked at me funny, so I showed it to her. We continued to laugh at it for like an hour, off and on...man...what an idiot. This kid's spelling talent certainly says a lot about the school he went to! And Justin's comment: He was hot though! *sigh* shallow gay guys...(acutally Joe and I had a conversation about that at work one day, it's an accurate stereotype for the most part)

Ok, then after arriving home, I began talking to Aaron. This conversation has been the source of TONS of smiling:

First he asked me what was wrong. I told him that I'm fighting with Linda. He was good. He made me feel better. I don't often get to talk to people about what's wrong in my life. It's usually the other way around. So it made me feel good. Thanks Aaron!

Then all of a sudden he says: "Hey emily, are you a lesbian?"

Man, I couldn't stop laughing. Just out of the blue, one of my best friend asks this. I can completely understand how confused they must be since I don't even know myself. But what was even more amusing was the reason he was asking. Apparently an old friend and fellow graduate told Aaron that Noah TURNED me gay, and that I came out here. She also said that Linda was gay too. Haha. Linda has a BOYfriend. And what on earth would Noah have to do with the fact that I am highly interested in girls? I dated Linda BEFORE I dated Noah. So...uh...sure. I think it has to do with things I've written on here that have made my friends kind of say "huh? what is she?" And I'm sorry to any of you that are confused...but...I'm not trying to label myself. If you want to know who I am, this is all I can say. I am Emily! as for sexuality...listen to "In or Out" by Ani Difranco. That about covers it.

Anyway, in telling Aaron this, I said "I'm Emily, that's all that matters" He said: "you certainly are emily. I dont think emilys so bad really. the world could have a lot worse things than emilys" That made me SOO Happy. Thank you! that's got to be one of the number one things I strive for...a life in which I can feel like it's okay to be me, whomever I am.

Now ALL this the day after I spend hours talking to two of the best people ever: Maggie and Floyd. Man...I'm still happy and excited about that.

What a beautiful life!....except that my dad just walked out of his room and past mine with nothing but tighty-whities on...ugh.