Nausea
Tuesday, Sept. 11, 2001 22:04

I want to talk to Liiiinda.

I have felt SICK all day. Seriously. I woke up and felt incredibly anxious. Horribly awful and anxious. I got up, and came back and sat in my bed to start up the computer, as usual. And it was only 9. I couldn't sleep. I felt SO nervous. Then, I began to feel incredibly nauseous. I dry-heaved for a while and began to feel slightly better, but still very anxious.

My mom came home around 11:30 for lunch and told me to come upstairs to watch the news with her, where I learned of this shitty ass terrorism. Man...it sucks. And I'm one of the most selfish people ever. I don't want this to be happening right now...I already have too much to deal with. I don't know anyone involved, I don't to have to deal with it! I'm such a bitch! And I hate myself for it. So I didn't show any emotion. I didn't allow myself to be bothered by the fact that so many innocent people had died. I wanted to be completely heartless, removed from the situation, pretend it didn't happen, and move on with my life. I still do actually...but the way people are dealing is really pissing me off. I wish the media would just shut up. They don't have anything to say, so they should stop saying anything. No, instead they're making the Palestinians look like shit through biased footage. This can only lead to MORE hate and discrimination by Americans that already think they are better than everyone. Man...I wish they would stop. Report when there's something to say...there's no need for this round-the-clock repetitive bias.

On a better note, Katie, Jen and I watched "American Beauty" tonight. Truly a wonderful movie...but we differed in opinion on whether the military guy is really gay. I think he is.

Jackson happened to be there at the time, with his little girls who are absolutely adorable of course :-) Katie and Jen loved them.

And I still feel anxiously nauseous. Isn't this wonderful?