Night with Friends
Saturday, Sept. 15, 2001 04:33

I hate how when a room is dark, and the tv is on, it seems to be forever blinking. The lighting in the room changed according to what the picture is on the tv. In fact, I don’t really like watching it at all when all the lights are off, but other people seem to, so I adjust. That and the fact that right now as I sit in my living room, there are three people trying to sleep. I should just shut the tv off, go downstairs to my room and leave them alone, but I want to feel their presence, I guess I could say.

It has been nice. I’m glad that I got to see pretty much all of my friends in one place before I leave. Tiffany and Ryan just kind of randomly dropped by, which was very cool. Aaron and Serena came, like 45 minutes late, but they came. Then Tiff and Ryan about an hour later, then Linda, then Katie a while after that. We watched Gia. I wonder how much people pay attention to movies vs. how much they pay attention to other people in the room. For me, it’s probably half and half. I like to watch the other people and see their individual reactions, observe what they are doing, how comfortable they look, and the expressions on their faces. I hope that most people don’t do this because, if they were during Gia, they would have seen that Linda and I weren’t being too appropriate.

I love her so damned much.

Before she came, I felt alone. Aaron and Serena were being cuddly, as usual, which is fine. They should be allowed to do that, if they so choose. No problem. But, I wanted someone to be cuddly with me *sigh* Then Linda came. We were all in my room for quite a while. It was cool, very enjoyable, fun, good, and Linda and I were close. This made me happy. Then there was Gia, then we were apart for a little bit while Katie dyed my hair. But I kept wanting to be closer and closer to her. And I was hoping with everything I could muster that she would be okay with a kiss goodbye.

A little before 4A, Linda was seeming pretty miserable. She can’t sleep in front of people, so she just felt awful, and couldn’t do anything about it. I told her to feel free to go home and get some sleep, and she did. She came over to me, I was sitting on the couch, and told me to get up, so she could give me a hug. She held me for a while and whispered that she loved me, and that she was going to miss me. Then, as hugs tend to do, it fizzled, and we separated a little, so that our faces were together, and she kissed me. Aaaah. So, then we resumed hugging, and then said goodbye. She left and I cried.

I love her so damned much!

So, then I went downstairs for a while, cleaned up the upstairs, e-mailed Floyd to apologize for stalking her yesterday and came back up, bringing my computer with me. And I’m not feeling slightly tired. Well, maybe slightly, but…yeah.

Haha, Aaron just started snoring. Yeah, I’m pretty sure they are all asleep now. I love them all so much! I found some cow stuff for Katie when I was packing, so I gave it to her. She dyed my hair, and asked me to sit and cuddle with her. I’m just sorry that after her absolute wonderfulness, I am so hung up on Linda. I hope that I haven’t come across as rude and distracted. Serena is wonderful. She makes me smile with her little cute noises and her passionate opinions. She and I agree on a lot of things, even though we have different taste in girls. And I always love to spend time with her. And Aaron….well, I think enough time has been devoted to Aaron. Suffice it to say that I love him.

So…today’s they day. Less than 12 hours. It is so strange to actually be here, in this day. I will update tonight, most likely, so you will all know how I survived the big move. Until then…*sigh* I don’t know…