Loneliness and Floyd
Wednesday, Sept. 19, 2001 13:49

Today is a new day. A new day of nothingness. I think it will be okay though. I met this really great girl down the hall named Gina. She's really friendly, and is the type of person that will be likely to get me involved in stuff. I had wished for a roommate like that, but Kristen is better at meeting people on her own, and less likely to invite me along.

There's a block party a little later, so I'm sure we'll check that out, but I'm more of a home body than I thoght I guess. I kind of just want to sit here and write letters, you know? I don't really want to be out ALL the time. I kind of just want to sit here and write letters, ya know?

Hehe, Floyd just made my day I think. I was talking to her, and she has to go:

Rita says:

have fun once classes start, will keep in touch

Rita says:

bye

Emily says:

yeah

Emily says:

don't forget to miss me

Emily says:

:-)

Emily says:

later

Rita says:

will always miss you

Rita says:

by the way i do love you, not in the heart throbbing sense

Emily says:

Thank you :-)

That was good. She is wonderful!

I miss my friends. They are wonderful! And as I've said a million times, I miss deep, meaningful friendships.

I was sad last night. People were out at a club that I couldn't go to, since my Birthday isn't til Friday, Kristen was with friends (and I don't really have many at all...) and...yeah. So I hung out with Gina for a little bit, wrote letters, and then came back here, lonely. Linda was online, but she didn't IM me, and I'm kind of sick of having shitty conversations with her. They depress me. So I didn't talk to her. Eventually she was away anyway. Then Jeff came on. She came back from away, then switched sns, to talk to him. SHIT that sucked ass! Maybe it'll get like that with us at some point, when she has a chance to miss me enough. But now...yeah. Then, on her site she wrote all about Jeff, how wonderful he is. She spoke as though he's the only one who gives a damn...no, it was more like, his feelings of giving a damn about her are more important than anyone else's. And that she didn't want to treat him like shit, but screw anyone else. So, that hurt. And it's not something she can control. She sees Jeff as being the most amazing person that exists. And maybe he is. I accept that. I know that she loves Jeff. But it makes me feel like shit all the same. unrequited love is a bitch.

So, time to do some letter-writing.