Where has my home gone?
Monday, Oct. 08, 2001 17:22

This FUCKING sucks!

I don’t know if it is a problem with my computer, or a problem with my internet, or what, but I can’t type on web page-type text entry thingies. I can, but I type faster than the text can show up, so it skips letters and spaces and stuff. I don’t know how to fix it.

I’m also fucking NOT in good shape. I feel like I have no home anymore. I don’t feel right here. Most of my friends are off doing their own things. Katie is the only one that has made me feel like I’m still a part of her life. I can’t blame them. They can’t depend on me, or actively make me a part of their lives if I’m not even there, but I just wanted someone to miss me. That’s it…and I never would have assumed that they wouldn’t. So, I don’t want to be home anymore. Nope, it sucks ass. I want to be back in my dorm with Kim and Lauren whom at least include me in their lives.

I feel so abandoned. I don’t want to be sitting here alone. But I also don’t want to be calling everyone I know, desperately hoping that they will maybe hang out with me, because they are bored or something. I wanted to see Aaron, but he’s with Serena. I should be glad about that. It’s good that he is with her. Things haven’t been good with them lately. But damnit, I want to see him. And if I’m going to be putting most of my effort into NOT wanting to see Linda, I need to see someone. Maybe he’ll call tonight, I don’t know.

This air strike stuff SUCKS. Man…I hate it. I hate what our country is doing right now. I hate that we all are getting all patriotic. That’s going to immediately make me look like a bitch, but hear me out. It’s good to love our country, if we don’t, where would we be? It’s good to have pride in our accomplishments, and our land, and our home. But, it’s NOT good to think we are better than everyone else. It’s not good to think that we have the right to kill people some of them killed some of us. How can we justify bombing a country to get back at a small group of terrorists? It makes me sick. And it makes me sad. The U.S. thinks it is better than any other country. This is not true. The U.S. thinks that Afganistan is bad. THIS is not true. The U.S. thinks that a war is called for. It’s NOT. And personally, I think Bush just wants a war. In part, this is because for some warped reason, Bush’s popularity increases when he is taking action. So, as long as he’s doing something, he’s popular. Not to mention the Bush tendency to support war. I hate it.

I just heard a wonderful song. It’s called “Bleed” by Cold. It’s good. I am DL-ing it.

I’m horny as hell. Heh heh. And I hate putting it that way. But, I’m not even gonna go into the extent of it. It’s embarrassing.