Reflections on a weekend at home
Tuesday, Oct. 09, 2001 20:57

I just had the urge to type "Hey!" as if I was writing an e-mail. Heh heh.

I'm really tired. I have a headache.

It was an interesting weekend. I'm really glad that I went home. It was good....it's just that things didn't quite go how I would have had them ideally happen.

I saw Linda today, barely. Man...it sucked a lot. I was sitting there in Floyd's room. My 3 favorite people were sitting there together. And she wasn't even fucking talking to me. Ouch. Maggie said it was funny. We were both sort of circling around each other, we both wanted to talk, but we didn't. Well, if she wants to talk to me, then I desperately want her to. But if she doesn't care either way, then neither do I. That's just how it has to be. I can NOT put myself out there for her anymore, unless she's going to care even a fraction of the amount that I care for her.

I saw Katie, Aaron and Serena. And I loved seeing them. But, it wasn't there. And sitting with Linda, and not talking to her, and laughing with her made me feel like shit.

But, that aside, it was a good weekend. I fixed some computer problems. Now, as soon as aol stops being a dick, I will be all good. And I was READY to come back here. This is good. Now I have TWO wonderful places to be. And I appreciate both so very much. Even if my concept of home is temporarily lost.

So, I have classes tomorrow, classes Thurs, work Fri, and then it's home to see Etheridge!!! This is going to be amazing. I am so excited!

ugh, still feel like shit physically though....time to rest a little.