Being a lovable Dork
Tuesday, Nov. 06, 2001 13:23

I’ve spent the morning writing letters, so this probably won’t be overly exciting.

I’m tired. I haven’t slept well in a while. I am not one of those people that can go to bed at 4a and get up in the afternoon feeling well-rested. I fully need to go to bed at 11 to get a good night’s sleep. It’s okay with me that I don’t sleep well every night, but it’s been a damn long time. Right now I feel like crap.....again. I have this ongoing cold-like thing, which I hate. I haven’t eaten since 2p yesterday and my stomach feels like crap due to the lack of food in conjunction with being so tired.

Emotionally, I’m okay. I talked to Emily today. That was cool. She always makes me smile. I wrote to Bec. I wrote to Amanda Topping. Becca wrote me a letter! She’s the first to write to me without me writing first. I miss Becca! She and I lost closeness a while ago, and haven’t really had too much contact since we graduated. It’s kind of sad. Aaron told me the other day that he was surprised that we were still friends, but that’s silly. We’ve been friends since 7th grade. It’s good stuff. And I miss her. I miss Amanda a lot too actually, both Amandas! It is interesting how being away from home make me miss people that I’ve already been apart from for a while. It’s like I’m finally realizing what value is. It’s a good thing. I’ve even felt like I want to get closer to my cousins lately. I want to talk to them, develop relationships and stuff. It would be good. I want to have good relations with all of these people that I love so dearly, because they are all parts of my life. They are very very important to me. And now that I know that, I am feeling much better

So, today I feel good. I didn’t write yesterday at all, but let me just assure you, it wasn’t a good day. I’m not going unto details. I wrote an entry, but the internet crapped out on me and I lost it. Looks like I’m going to have to start typing them on word again. That’s what I’m doing now anyway because I’m in work study. I could type it on the work study computer, but I like my keyboard better. I love having a laptop. Here I am, in the office, typing away, listening to System of a Down, and enjoying it. It’s good.

But you know what? I am loved!

Thank you, if you love me!

I think this stems a lot from Linda’s blog entry last night. She explained why she hasn’t been missing me, because she can’t. And that made me feel better. Everyone has been telling me that was the reason I haven’t been getting much from her emotionally lately, but I had yet to hear it from her. But last night, I heard it. She didn’t say it directly to me, so it wasn’t optimal, but I’ll take that. She knows I read, I think.

PLUS, she’s coming on Nov 17th. Thank heaven!!! Oh gosh, thank you, those of you that are visiting! I’m so excited!

I also went to my first opera last night! It was called Ressurection. It was in Boston’s theater district. I like the theater district! I haven’t been there until last night, but it’s cool shit! Very very cool. I like doing things that would be considered cultural. It makes me feel good, like a better person. Plus, I like the opera, and musicals, theater, concerts, stuff like that. So yeah, Kim and I are dorks, we admit it though, so it’s all good!