Looking Ahead
Thursday, Nov. 08, 2001 11:48

"I said I'm sorry, but what for? If I hurt you, then I hate myself. I don't want to hate myself, don't want to hurt you. Why do you choose your pain? if you only knew, how much I love you, love you. I won't be your winter. I won't be anyone's excuse to cry. We can be forgiven and I will be here."

-Sister Hazel

I love that song. It's not really very relevant in my life. In fact, its meaning kind of escapes me. I guess I just have never really had anything to relate it to.

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I spent most of Philosophy today thinking about other things. At first I was thinking about my logic test this morning. There was one proof that I couldn't solve. I tried and tried for a half hour, and still couldn't get it. I did everything else with relative ease. But just that one proof...ugh. I felt like shit about myself when I left the room. Well, on my walk to Blockbuster this morning to return Legally Blonde, I got over that. I also enjoyed walking down Mass ave, and St. Stephen Street, looking at the leaves, the apartments, the city. It was nice. So, for part of Philosophy, I was reflecting on that. It seems that, after 2 months, I am finally feeling more settled here. I'm beginning to feel happier. I know more people, feel more comfortable, I'm getting more used to classes, feeling more competent, and less "new." It's still not perfect, but definitely better. Life is good.

What else was I thinking about? Oh yeah, next weekend.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is going to be wonderful!

Katie is Coming Friday. I'm very very excited about that! She will make me feel really good. She's so loving and enthusiastic about me. She makes me feel appreciated, and I love her to death, so it all works out. It will be good.

Floyd, Jen, Ricky and Linda are coming Saturday! It's the Boston trip. I want to try to spend the whole day with them if I can. I just have to find out when they are coming, and meet them.

Those are my thoughts for the moment. Now, I must continue my search for a program to DL music.