Finally, a good day
Wednesday, Jan. 23, 2002 22:13

Totally having a good day.

8:15 I woke up about a half hour before my alarm went off, yes, but I was able to stave off the anxiety enough to stay in bed until my alarm went off. I did not make it until it went off for the snooze....but I'm making small steps.

9:15 I had Psych. I love psych. It is so completely right up my alley. I find myself constantly applying every new thing I learn to the world around me. It is wonderful. This is the same way I am with language. This is why I'm thinking about a double maor. How many people that know me at all could say that linguistics wouldn't be appropriate?

10:30 Calc. Blah, okay, no evidence there, I guess.

11:45 French Film. Besides being completely unrealistic, the movie we have been watching was pretty good. I enjoyed it for the most part. It's called Cafe Au Lait, and it is entirely about racism in Paris. And for the first time in an analysis of any book or movie, I really felt like I was up to par. I am getting this stuff. I am learning to think the way a college student is supposed to think. It's good.

NOON Lunch with Christina. She's cool. She makes me laugh. Gotta love the sarcasm.

2-4 Work study, in which I did my calc homework, the metro crossword, and enjoyed the company of Ann and Lisa.

4-5 A little internet time. Good stuff overall. Noah makes me smile a lot. I can't help it. I love the guy. And I have hereby decided that it is something my friends are going to have to accept. Noah is going to be my friend. Granted, we have a messy past. Granted, I can't expect certain people to be okay with this. I can't expect anything from anyone where he is concerned, but I don't think I am wrong in expecting acceptance from my friends. I still need to be careful. I have to guard myself where he is concerned. I can't give him too much, because he will take it all, whether purposely or not. I can't depend on him, because due to his nature, I will be let down. I can't wait for him anymore. But I can enjoy him, and talk to him, and let him make me smile.....and not only was there Noah, but Serena imed me just to say that she was writing to me, and that she loves me. Yay!!!!

6-9 Chorus. I love chorus. It is wonderful. The only down side was that my buddy Casey didn't go. Shame on her!

9-10 Beck invited me over for some silly anime :-) She also lent me some comic books. Good stuff!!! Lesbian sex even! heh heh. Beck doesn't know about me....about whatever I am this week. She's going to be my roommmate next year, so especially if I meet someone, it will probably be important for her to know. But...I'm not ready yet. It's not that I think she will have a problem with it, but more that I am not ready to give myself over yet. I messed up last time, so this time, who knows?

And now I'm relaxing, trying to think of songs to download, now that song spy is working properly, and soon it will be bedtime.

Beck wants to go on a little excursion tommorrow, so that, in conjunction with my good day should theoretically take away some anxiety. But, I guess I'll see when the time comes.