Thur, Friday, Internet
Friday, Feb. 08, 2002 17:56

I have a canker sore. Yuck!

First, I will update a little bit about my last two days. Then, I shall explain my recent thoughts on the internet.

Yesterday was really cool. I went over to Casey's to watch Thursday night TV. Casey is great. And so far, she seems to be very pure, very straightforward. She jokes around a lots, makes fun of people. But that's not what I mean. That's funny. I'm talking about the way she is towards me most of the time, when we have a chance to talk and stuff. We were both complaining about how weekends at NU suck. She is also the same religion as me, so we're going to go to church together. That will be really good for me, I think. Lately I am so focused on keeping my mind healthy. I've never had to think so much about it before because I had a little comfy place in society to support me. Now it seems that every move I make has a lot more bearing on the outcoming emotions. ANYWAY, so yeah, Casey is definitely cool.

I didn't get to sleep until 4 am this morning due to the presence of my mutant roommate. I swear, this girl can NOT be human. Anyway, so I didn't go to work this morning. I felt awful when I woke up at 8. So, I slept until 11, and then went to class. Then I had lunch with Robin and Katie and walked around with them for a while. I'm actually expecting Robin to call me any minute. She and I are going to dinner, and then going to watch the opening ceremonies for the olympics. yay!

So, things are good. While I was eating lunch, and having a fabulous talk with these two fabulous girls, I also saw 4 people I knew that waved enthusiastically to me. yay! Yesterday walking along, I saw people I knew. PLUS, one of the newest additions to my social circle, Lindsey, is in my modern novel class, so now I have someone to sit with and stuff.

OKAY, internet. I have not been online very much at all today. AND, I have not really been on AIM at all. Here are my thoughts:

1) AIM is breaking down people's ability to communicate with each other in any other manner. It is the easy way out. And in the real world, not practical. It is so important for people to know how to talk to each other, and with the internet, we don't have to.

2) AIM leaves me pretty lonely, drained, and guilt-ridden. I HATE how the internet is where I turn simply when I have nothing else to do. I feel lazy. It is also NOT the same as human contact. I'm typing at a computer screen. It's just not cool. But yet, it is so addictive that it takes up so much of my time. I end up wasting hours that I could be using to read, or go to the gym, or write, or sew, or anything, really. So yeah....it's not a good pastime at all.

So yeah, I'm definitely limiting my AIM time. Chances are I will still use it at least once a day, for a while anyway. I will be spending less time online overall, but I will still write here, and feed Wallabey and email people. But yeah, the concept of instant messaging, or having such a constant connection broken every once in a while by an away message is really leaving a bad taste in my mouth.

Maybe I'll actually be able to make something of the real world now.