It's not just me
Monday, Feb. 11, 2002 22:04

I have managed to get myself one of those crushes that will never work. I reeeally don't want to go into it, since....well, since I don't want to. But let's just say that my brain has been on overload trying to come up with new methods of stalking and gathering info.

I can remember thinking during the day that there wer things I wanted to write about. But now I can't remember what they were. OH well, I've always been good at coming up with stuff to ramble about.

I am reading a book called The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie I really like it. It's thoroughly enjoyable. Enough so that I will finish it in time? Eh, I suppose we'll see. But anyway, it lead to some other thoughts. It is about these girls and a teacher that particularly influenced them. In the case of the "Brodie set," they are in junior high. But it reminds me SO much of LSG. They do the same things we always used to do with Floyd...speculating on her private life and stuff. It's kind of crazy. I've been missing Floyd lately anyway, so that increased it all.

I hate that I tend to associate Floyd and Maggie together so much, since although they have affected me similarly, they really have nothing to do with each other in terms of me. But yeah, I started missing Maggie a lot. And then I put in my Jodee Messina cd. It makes me think of her a lot. And lately I've been feeling very ripped off. So, it is a little rough.

Then I spent a while looking for my new crush online (yes, I already have a screen name. Shame on me!!!), and then I re-did my AIM profile so it's all nice and rainbow now. Heh. I'm trying so hard to expose myself without actually ever having to. And then I laugh when I hear that people are saying things and asking Floyd if I'm a lesbian. I just don't know anymore. I'm a pretty crazy kid.

Serena reads away messages :-) I wish she had AIM, she'd love the new profile. She just imed me to say that she loves me. She does that whenever I seem sad. She's so sweet. I'm not really that sad though. I don't know....

Ryan always IMs me when I'm away. She has an ice-age version of AOL that doesn't tell her when I'm away. I wish she'd leave a message though. She just says "hey" with no comment. But that's her. I got a card from her today. Nothing written inside except her name: "Ryan."

I love Ricky a lot. Last night we had a reeeally good conversation.

Katie emailed me today too. :-) Have I ever mentioned how much I need everyone around me?

Wow. I have the best support system. AND...AND AND AND AND...I got an A on my modern novel paper! What a relief. That means I have an A in every class.

"Do you wanna travel the world? Do you wanna be a diver for pearls? Or climb a mountain and touch the clouds above? Be anyone you want to be. Bring to life your fantasy. I want something in return. I want you to burn. Burn for me baby like a candle in my night." -Jodee Messina

I like being me.