A Sunday of familiarity
Sunday, Feb. 17, 2002 20:13

Sundays are my home connection days.

I seem to always talk to Katie on Sundays. I'm not sure if that is intentional on her part, but it has become so on mine. Today's conversation was rather rough though. I feel so bad. In the news there was a very short story about a mall bombing in Israel. Depending on which news article you read, the amount of people that were killed differs. But, of the people killed, one of them was Katie's cousin. I've heard her talk about her cousins that live in Israel a lot. And now, her younger cousin, whom is the same age as her sister Emily is dead, due to a palestinian suicide bombing. That's not cool. Not cool at all. I can't even imagine the effect it must have on her family. Yick! :-(

Talked to Linda for a long time today. Nothing terribly monumental I guess. We argued a little about the neopian coalition. She was being kind of offensive. But oh well. Nothing I can do. Getting offended just makes an unhappy Emily. This skill also came in later when talking to Aaron, but I will get to that. Um, so I still don't know if the NYC thing is for sure. But, I don't really want to ask, because I'm sure that it is something I will find out. And I don't want to get my hopes up so early in the week.

Talked to Aaron online. He realized, I think, how little he has talked to me lately. He apologized, and then told me about his weekend. Then he called and we talked for an hour. I don't know. I should be feeling better now, but I'm really not. He talked about himself. He didn't ask me how I was at all. I had to volunteer any information I wanted to give. And then he went on to criticize people who don't have a good definition of what a friend is, but in doing so, made a few very hypocritical statements. I didn't correct him, or point out anything negative to him. He's feeling bad enough, and it is SO easy to start a fight with him. I'm just not in a place where I want to do that. At one point I really had to put my foot down to change the conversation. He made a comment about how he doesn't understand why people consider figure skating a sport. Whoa. Now that is something I could argue for a LONG time about, but I chose not to. I was just going to end up very very offended.

I called Tiffany today too because she said she was going to call me back yesterday and didn't. I didn't mind that she didn't call me back, but I thought it would be cool to talk to her. So I left her a really long voice mail that will probably make her laugh. And maybe she'll get back to me. Who knows?

My mom emailed me also, saying that the money from my taxes was deposited into my savings account. I, Emilia Blanco, am now the proud owner of about $800. Whoa! How exciting! And just think....if my computer hadn't needed to be fixed, I'd have like $1400! If only, right? But I don't know what to do with myself. For now, I'm just leaving the money in savings. I won't touch it until I have to. And the fact that it is in a bank in Maine is going to make that a lot easier for me, I think.

But in the midst of all of this, I am greatly missing Floyd. Hehehe, everyone wants to do Floyd! I think it's kind of funny. I won't name names, and I will say that not EVERYONE wants her, but yeah, many people do these days :-) hehehehehe. I hope she reads that and gets all freaked out. I just really want to talk to her. For a while I had her blocked on my msn buddy list because I didn't really want to talk to her online. She doesn't really IM me either, so it was unnecessary, but eh. I don't know...I guess sometimes I want to make myself unavailable to people to see if they will make an effort. Plus, I was thinking that if she couldn't talk to me online, she'd be more likely to send me more real mail. I'm a weird kid. Yeah, so I really want to talk to her now. I wonder if she every consciously misses me. I wonder if Maggie ever does. Both of them claim to when they talk to me. But what about when I'm not there? How often do I enter people's thoughts when I'm not there? I've always tended to think that I don't very often, except with some people, who make it clear that I do.

The most elusive people are always the ones I want affection from the most. And that's totally not fair. And maybe that's why people don't necessarily appreciate me. because I'm not at all elusive. I'm totally there all the time for people. They love me, but I'm not exciting to them. Not like the elusive ones.

So, now I think I might go to Wollaston's. I have a craving for sharp cheddar cheese. mmm.