Not a wonderful Day
Friday, Mar. 01, 2002 18:45

In a diary, shouldn't I talk about what is on my mind? Of course. And that, my friends, is the glory of anonymity, something which I do not have in any respect here in the world of diaryland.

But, alas, I think I will be a little more honest than I should be here today. After I go to the bathroom, that is...

(about a minute later)

I have a littl headache. I just took some tylenol. But what I really need is some rest. mmm.

Yeah, so i'm wondering why Linda sent me a chat invitation considering she doesn't do that, and that I haven't talked to all week. And I'm thinking about something she wrote in her blog which I shouldn't have even read, and I'm thinking about how everything she does is intentional. I'm becoming more curious now. At the beginning of the week I just didn't care. At that point I was still a little angry. Now I'm not angry. Now it's all conviction, and a personal understanding of my need to be the best me I can be. It's also reflection, disgust, realizing my stupidity, and being purely tired. So now the urge to check and see if she is online is a little harder to stave off. I've been reading her blog all along. I have a need to know what's going on in people's lives. That's just me.

But it's okay. Eventually I will forget about all of this and the urge will be gone.

Eventually I will realize what this means. It hasn't quite hit me yet, I guess. But, it will.

So, No March 8th concert.

Been feeling pretty crappy physically.

The importance of pot has become more obvious by the day.

I am frustrated both by my inability to relax and let things happen and the tendency of others to put planning off until the last possible moment.

BUT, tonight's activities should be very very good. Robin and I are watching "O" and "Captain Corelli's Mandolin." I just wish I wasn't so tired!

Dinner is soon.