Short rant
Friday, Mar. 01, 2002 11:18

I'm NOT having a good day.

Why oh WHY do things have to spoil my good-ness? Bleh.

So, Ben's not coming on March 8th. And now I get the job of telling Tiff, Ryan, Maggie, Beck, Lauren and Robin about it. I feel stupid for telling all these people and getting all excited and getting THEM all excited when it's not even happening.

I also have to pee.

And I just talked to Floyd. She's having a bad day. And I feel so helpless. If I'm hacing a bad day, there are people that can always cheer me up, no matter what. She's one of them. But I can't say anything that will make her feel better. It's kind of an ongoing problem. I'm just really sick of being more emotionally effected by things than the people that are affecting me are effected by me. Does that make sense? I'm just saying that, for instance, I do not make people as happy as they make me. And I don't make people as sad as they make me. I just seem to care a hell of a lot more. And it really really sucks.

Maybe I'm just not as good at hiding my emotions as they are. Maybe I'm just a shmuck.

But I gotta go. I'll write more later....