Balancing it all out
Saturday, Mar. 02, 2002 02:02

I wonder if things all even out in the end. Some people are rich, some are poor. Some are atheletic, some are studious. Some people are attractive, some people are nice. Some people grew up with material possessions, and some with Love. But what about the people that seem to have it all? Do they also have something that they feel isn't fair? What about them? What about people like me whose parents have to put their daughter's $3500 tuition bill on a credit card in order to constantly provide her with the best that they can, only AFTER receiving thousands in financial aid, when the US realized how poor she was. What of that? What about the girl who NEVER got the toys she wanted growing up? What about the girl who was unpopular all throughout school? The girl who no boy would ever lay a hand on because she's too ugly and fat? What about the girl with no will power? What about the girl that always seems to pick the wrong people to love? What about her??? Huh??? She's got love. She's got the most wonderful friends anyone could ask for. She gets along with her parents. She's emotionally stable. She even made the dean's list her first term in college! She can write decently. A lot of people consider her to be a good friend. She's sensible, organized, empathetic, caring, emotional, reliable. She's got all that. But so do other people. So do the people who are strong, powerful, wealthy, beautiful, talented, athletic, respectable, outgoing, born leaders, popular, likeable. So, where does it even out? DOES it even out?

Does it??????

The girl that's traveled all over the world without ever ONCE thinking about how much it might cost is everything else too. Where is her drawback? Surely not in her two wonderful older brothers, or two parents that she absolutely adores, or her strong will. Maybe it's not there.

Maybe that's just it. People aren't equal.

But I can't believe that. Everyone has good and bad. Maybe it's just yet to be discovered. Maybe I just can't think of it right now because I'm tired and emotional. Maybe the things I consider to be drawbacks are really not such at all.

Where did this come from? I really do like myself, my life most of the time.

It's 2 am. I need to get some sleep.