Cut Short
Tuesday, Mar. 12, 2002 21:31

Tomorrow is my psych final. But before I study, I thought I'd do a little updating.

I really miss Noah at times. This causes me problems. Firstly, I have no chance of every seeing him, so the chances of this being alleviated are zero. THEN, there's the fact that I've already given him SO much more than he deserves of me. I just am not sure. I don't really get what it is that makes me feel so bound to him. And if I can let go of things that I recognize as being bad for me, and do all of this cleansing, then shouldn't he be one of the first things to go? I don't know. He's still endeared to me. And I guess I see him as pretty non-threatening, since I don't see him much, and since I, as of now, have no emotional investment in anything he says or does. The scary part is how fast that could hypothetically change. Eek!

Going home the day after tomorrow! Woow. I am hoping that this break is good for me. I'm not as anxious to go home as I have been in the past. This is quite evident from the fact that I am recognizing the pain in the butt it is to get myself to South Station. In the past, this would not have even been a concern of mine. It would be so clearly worth it. It IS worth it, no doubt, but the hassle portion is coming through also. Plus, I'm having a good time here right now. So, going home isn't as exciting as it was in the past. It is good though. And there are definitely things that I am looking forward to being in the presence of.

I'm feeling other things...other things that I meant to write about. But I suddenly don't want to right now.