Back at School again
Wednesday, Mar. 27, 2002 11:29

I was just thinking to myself that people don't update their diaries often enough, wishing that they would. Then I realized. Well, you know, that's pretty silly of me to say, since I haven't update for probably a week now. Silly me.

I wrote in my real journal last night, and it was good. It was this really deep explanation and analysis of change. Translation: it's something that I will read about a year from now and feel ashamed that I once thought I was insightful.

I am really glad to be back here at NU. I am thoroughly enjoying Beck and Lauren and my computer and my freedom even if I don't have any money because my books were $300 and I just had to buy a bunch of new clothes.

I need to get cracking on these mountains of scholarship applications. I need to make some phone calls. I need to go to gnomon copy to pick up the class pack for my journalish class (which looks like it's going to be incredible). I'm pretty hungry. And for now, I'm enjoying chatting with Jeff online.

I hung out with Noah on Sunday. Not bad. Not bad at all. We just talked for a while, until he had to go, of course. Since he always has to go. But this time it was okay. I didn't mind that he had to go.

Tonight Lauren, Beck and I are renting (I HOPE!) "But I'm a cheerleader." It is the funniest movie I've ever seen. And it has lesbian sex. Do you get much better than that?

All I really did over break was watch movies. It's good to be back and productive. Or at least mildly productive. This is fitting. Right now I'm explaining to Jeff how compulsive I am and stuff. I really am getting better about this. My mom and I had a conversation about it over break. I used to be really really bad and blame myself for every single imperfection that arose. I still do blame myself a lot...more than most people say I should, but I don't know. If I don't blame myself, then I'm afraid that I'll slip into this pattern of delinquency.

I love "Crazy/Beautiful." I now have the soundtrack and the movie. They are both so good. :-)

...and then there are moments when I don't think I'm really all that uptight at all. I don't know!!

ok. Finito.