hormones??
Thursday, Apr. 25, 2002 11:04

Sooo, I don't think there's a delicate way to describe the way I feel today. Well, at least not a portion of it. But let me see...

haha, ok, here's what Merriam Webster says:

Entry Word: *horny
Function: adjective
Text: Synonyms LUSTFUL 2, concupiscent, goatish, hot, lascivious, libidinous, lickerish, passionate, prurient, satyric

I, personally, am a fan of "libidinous," yes, that will later be my away message.

But it's not just that. It's not like I have this insatiable craving for sex. I'm just thinking that sex would be a pleasant bi-product of what I want. I, on the other hand, want a Sarah, a Rita, a Jeff, a Kim, a Tom, an Ashley. Mmm yes, I'm feeling the pangs of loneliness, of desire (except I don't like to say that because it sounds a tad too dramatic).

Yeah, I want someone. My first instinct there was to write "I want a chick." But, eh, who knows, right? Things present themselves in unexpected ways. And if I didn't keep telling myself that (over and over and over and over and over), wouldn't be making it through all these lonely years.

I'm in a pretty strange mood today, really. Oooodd.

I was hoping for a good romantic and/or sexual dream last night. Mmm, yes, that would have been nice. But they come so very rarely. I was talking to Liz about that yesterday (ooh! She gets her name mentioned for the first time...I have a theory about that too actually. I am all about making people feel good about themselves. I like name-dropping because it makes the people mentioned feel rather important. And you know...they are important, so they should be made to feel that way. Sooo, I tend to do that, right away. If you look back to last summer...August, I think...you'll see that I mentioned Kara a lot. She enjoyed that. I enjoyed her. It was all good. But it wasn't, really. It didn't end the way I'd like it to end this time. Not as though it ever really ended. I should try to make more sense though, shouldn't I? Theory: Nothing can be done the same as it was done in the past--in a similar situation--because it's important for it to be different so it can end differently. Make sense?) She has sexy dreams. I wish I had sexy dreams. Hmmph. Uh, I think that's as far as I was going with that.

Woooo, weird. Pluh!

I'm supposed to be doing homework. It's not necessary though. So ha! take that! I'm not going to do your homework!

The outside is pretty :-)