La vida buena
Monday, Apr. 29, 2002 21:34

yaaaaaay! I feel like going outside and twirling through the pretty green field under the bright yellow sun until I'm so busy that I fall on the ground and look up at the sky trying to make shapes from the clouds. Yes, I feel like a kid. I feel so happy! and giggly! And like none of this stupid poo matters because life is all about the other stuff, the good, happy kid stuff.

In addition to feeling all soft and mushy like a little kid, I also feel good about myself because I got a lot done today. And I didn't even feel tired! My body is so weird! Mmm, it's so gooood. I walked to CVS to get my pictures. They weren't that great. And the one I took of Beck dancing didn't come out, but that's okay. There are still some good ones in there. And as I was walking there, I was just smiling at people and feeling so good and free, like my legs could carry me all the way there, and I didn't even have to think about it, and I could smile at people, at these PEOPLE, souls inside bodies! Such an amazing thing! I like people. Yes, yes I do. And THEN, the CVS photo person totally proved me wrong about mean workers in the city. She was sooo nice! Whenever I encounter someone like that, I leave smiling. It just makes my heart feel so big! ooh, it's so beautiful and sparkly!

mmm, I also wrote a letter to Becca. It feels good to write letters! I mailed TWO letters today. Yay! I love them, there's like these little packages of happiness and personality.

I can't even express this! It's like all that makes me who I am has swelled to the very edge of my skin, so that it is all that is left in there. There's no more bullshit, or stress or sadness, just this image of myself, of the personality that I sometimes forget is even there anymore. It's so amazing.

It's beyond words! This child-like, frolicking feeling! And it makes me want to make a list of happy things. I would, but I don't think I can think anymore! I've spent so much time studying and stuff today. Hopefully the mood will carry on enough to do it another day very soon.

How can a day start off so cranky and end so giddy? I don't know, but it's happened once again, the "fates" were on my side!

Happy Monday!!!