Too tired
Friday, May. 17, 2002 13:54

I'm really really tired, worn out, sick-feeling. And as a bi-product, I'm pretty irritable. I don't know. I just don't feel good. I wish more than anything that I could go to bed early tonight, but I can't, because we're going to see Star Wars. I really want to see Star Wars, so it's not a sacrifice, but hey, I'm dead right now.

My cheeks are hot, in the way that they tend to get when I'm this tired. I have a really dull headache, and stomach ache. My throat is tired, and I feel like I need to be coughing.

And deep inside me, there's this feeling of anxiety, and stress over a couple of different things. The most superficial thing was simply how dirty and gross my room was. I pretty much have that under control now, thankfully. Next comes the outright prom. I don't know...I'm sick of the hassle. I wish I could just have planned it all out really smoothly because now I'm not sure if it's going to happen, and that is making me stressed, and I don't want to have to call it off because I know that Katie and Sarah really do want to go. I'm not sure what to do. I'm kind of at an impass. Foof. Oh well. The third thing is, of course, my spanish paper. I haven't started it. And then today, she reminded me that we also have to do an oral presentation. Well, you know, that's just fucking great. Jeez. Grr. And I wish I had the time to get a good start on it this weekend, but I've gone and booked myself. yes!

I don't know. I just don't feel too great right now. And I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.

I need rest, badly.

I downloaded a bunch of new songs yesterday which I am now enjoying immensely, so I'm going do that on my bed now.