Where have all the good feelings gone?
Friday, May. 24, 2002 08:55

What is it like to be so sure?

What is it like to be so certain?

So wise?

So completely amazing?

I'm watching Riding in Cars with Boys. Everything about this movie, so far is frustrating me. Bev makes me want to scream. Her father makes me violent. Her husband makes me hate men (even more). Her son makes me so sad. I guess I'll have to wait and see how it all turns out.

Ouch, this movie keeps getting harder and harder to watch. And above all, it makes me feel like a complete asshole.

"I think that sometimes we love people so much that we have to be numb to it. Because if we actually felt how much we really loved them, it would kill us. That doesn't make you a bad person. It just means your heart's too big."

I wish that people were more responsible in general. I know, I'm in college, and now is the time for irresponsiblity, but it bother me, nonetheless, yet another reason why i feel like I don't belong here. This isn't an attack on anyone personally. Please don't think that it is. It just seems to be a really common theme around here these days.

I just got an email from Joan. I guess things with Julio are not really that bad after all. Thankfully.

Awww! sorry, it's the movie again...

It's noon. I need to be doing something other than sitting here writing and watching. But, I won't today. Please, don't let me stay up late. I desperately need to go to bed at a decent hour, and then get up early and do my paper. I neeeeeed to.