Congratulate me! (and all of my wonderful friends!)
Saturday, Jun. 08, 2002 00:04

I've found things to do today, fortunately. I will also have things to do tomorrow and things to do for the rest of the summer, most likely. At first I was beginning to get a little discouraged. I didn't have anyone to spend time with tonight. But it ended up being okay.

I went out to dinner with my parents. We went to 99 and it was much better than either of the other times I had been there. Much much better, despite the fact that my dad spent the whole time watching the red sox game.

I went to Hannaford with them afterwards and had a fun little reunion with Jen G and Tiffany. Ruth was there too, and that was also good.

Afterward was when the significant stuff happened. I somehow got into a conversation with my mom which later lead to some amazing things. She sat with me in my room for a couple hours talking to me. I went through my entire relationship with Linda. I didn't use a whole lot of detail, but I explained it all to her. She already knew. And I figured that she would. But I think she was glad to hear it from me. She told me some very personal things about her past as well. And she explained some things about herself that have really helped me to understand the way our entire family works. Wow. It was good, and so very necessary. My goal for this summer was to come out to my parents before I went back to school. Mission accomplished. And I was right, she definitely already knew. But it was good. I felt pretty comfortable asking her questions about herself, and she seemed okay with telling me.

And there is one thing that makes talking to my mom better than talking to anyone else. She LISTENS to me. She is so completely there for me, it's amazing. She's my whole world in a very very non-incestuous way (so don't even start) and I'm so so glad that she's so amazing. We did interrupt each other a bit, but it was still good. Anyone else would have had to go. Anyone else would have had something else they'd rather be doing. Anyone else would have had to carefully plan the time for a talk such as this. Anyone else would have been different. But not my mom. My mom sat with me and talked to me for hours, and then went to bed without ever making me feel like a burden.

I love her so much I could cry.

aaaaand, I just looked at the time and realized something. It's June 8th. Time for the special event:

Happy one-year anniversary to me!!!

all congratulations are welcomed!

Oooh, such a crazy year it has been. D-land has been good. I've enjoyed all this writing and sharing. It's fabulous. So so good. And no matter how many other online diaries I have, this one will always have a special place in my heart....HA HA HA! I sounds like a raving lunatic! Okay, trash that corny crap back there, will you?

I feel good. And I'm hoping that this summer will be really good for me. I feel growth. I feel like I"m not the same person as I was when I left here 9 months ago. I am thankful for that, and thankful for all that this year has helped me to see.

My friends are graduating on Sunday. I'm proud of them, and very excited for them. And I can't wait to see it for my own eyes.

Things are soo emotionally warm and breezy. No sneezes today!