Heat, regrets, movie roles
Wednesday, Jul. 31, 2002 22:28

I have been physically miserable today. I can't stand the heat, and it's been pretty hard to deal with. If I had felt like doing anything besides watching movies, I would have actually done something about it, but instead, I just whined and remained fairly unhappy and moist.

I wanted to go swimming so much today. That would have been so nice. And I thought about going to Beaver Park. They have a couple of man-made ponds there that people can swim in. Generally though, none of my friends will swim there. It's pretty mucky, and I've heard that people have come across leaches there, but I've never really had issues with it. Whatever. "God made dirt. Dirt don't hurt." I really should have gone, but i decided that I wanted to sit around instead. Just too hot to not be lazy, I guess. Something like that anyway.

I will go to Beaver Park sometime soon though. It occurred to me a little while ago that it has been a really long time since I have been there. I used to go every once in a while to swim, walk around, do whatever with my family. And it is only 5 minutes away from here, across town, and yet I forget that it exists most of the time. So, mental note: Go to Beaver Park soon! (Anyone want to go with me? I don't know who is squeamish about it...)

Tonight, however, I feel like sitting outside with Linda. But she's not online, and I don't even know if she's home, so I don't want to risk calling and waking someone up, since if she IS home, then she's probably not online because her parents are in bed.

...yeah.

So, I'm really really tired. It's alright though, because maybe that way I will get some sleep and then not waste my entire morning.

My evening was good, too, I should mention. My mom and I got chinese food. The restaurant we went to had these pretty pink flowers made of cabbage (dyed pink). I took mine home, and it is currently drying out. I was just amazed by the artistry in something as simple as a garnish. It's beautiful.

Then we watched Amelie. Oh boy. I love that movie soo much! Fortunately Lala bought it, so we can watch it all the time this fall in our apartment. But it's really great. It's funny and cute, and makes me feel very gushy. I think Audrey Tatou is adorable. I love her expressions. And Derek was right when he said that it changes the way you view human kind. Everyone's got their own story and life. And some people's are worse than others. And it takes a truly amazing person to understand and make room for all of the people in his or her life. It's so important to keep in mind all of that, to do those little things to keep those around you healthy, and to appreciate all of the simple pleasures.

I want to be like Amelie (minus the bad childhood, strained relationship with father, and loneliness for a really long time). She's the second person I've wanted to be like from a movie. The first is Danielle from Ever After. There's a scene where her prince asks her how she can live each day with such passion. I would like to be asked that. I would like to eminate all that passion. yeeeah.

But for now, I'm alright as is.