odds and ends
Tuesday, Sept. 10, 2002 12:54

I wish I could go a day without craving something. Because that would signify contentedness...right? Today I am craving talking to Lauren. She keeps telling me (all summer!) that she needs to talk to me, but she never has time for me :-( She always has to go, and I never seem to get the whole story. I know that in a week I'll be living with her, and we'll have time for tons of talking, but I am impatient. I think that's about it for right now, because I'm feeling somewhat debilitated by cramps at the moment. Uff. I don't kow what this is about.

I only have 3 more days of work left (today, tomorrow, Thursday). Work is just work though. I don't hate it. I don't particularly like it. But I am going to miss some of the people that I work with (Stephie, Marie, Raelynn, Mr. Day, Nita). Mostly Rae though, I think. I don't know what my issue is. I feel like an asshole. I try to impress her, and talk to her, and make her laugh. I try to act big and "cool" around her. And I always want it to be her that's closing. It's like a crush, but completely and utterly non-sexual. It reminds me of how in high school Linda used to say that Aaron had a non-sexual crush on Mr. Hall. Maybe this is a common occurance?

I love Psychology. I can't wait to take more, learn more, see more, understand more. It is incredible how much more I understand, and recognize in people just after the very few psych classes I have taken. I definitely feel like I'm in the right field.

Tiffany is coming home for the night. She's going to stop by my house tommorrow for some stuff. That's cool. I hope I feel better by then. It's one thing to have a cold and stuff and not want to do anything, but when I have cramps...I just don't want to move. This dull ache takes over my entire body, and I hate that.

I wish it wasn't so hot. This is September. I don't understand why it has to be so hot. Yesterday the thermometer on the deck said that it was 110 degrees. Granted, it sits right in the sun and isn't accurate in the middle of the day, but still man...It had to be over 90. And for September in maine, that's just not cool. This summer has just been insane. Okay, here, I found it. The high temp in Brunswick yesterday was 92. However, I live about 12 miles inland, where it is generally up to 5 degrees hotter at any given time. So yeeeah. I don't like hot weather.

Now I have to focus on packing. I'm going to try to get boxes at work today. We'll see how successful I am in remembering to do that. This weekend is going to be quite busy. I will -hopefully- be having dinner with Floyd one of those days, and dinner with my mom the other day. I'm having lunch (and a little shopping trip) with my mom and grandmother on Saturday. So, it looks like I'd better get most of my packing done Friday. Maybe I'll start Thursday if I feel motivated. I have a lot of stuff to sort through. I brought too much with me last year, and I'm going to try not to do that this time.

phew! Well, at least I've gotten most of my financial shit taken care of. My loan is all set to be dispersed to NU. I should be getting my Two/Ten scholarship soon. I sent out the final paperwork today. My health insurance was waived. And all the other crap I need is taken care of, I think. Now I'm just worried about when I'm going to get the Ani cd, poster, and tickets that I ordered. Hmph.

Hopefully all will be resolved soon.