Turning 19
Sunday, Sept. 22, 2002 14:17

Yesterday was my birthday. I was disappointed with my birthday before it even started. I didn't think anyone was going to remember. I knew that everyone already had plans, and that there was no way it was going to be "my day." I wrote about it in my paper journal before I went to bed. I was feeling pretty sad, because I just wanted some attention. I wanted to be talked to and hugged, and given a day all for myself. I didn't get a day to myself, but as it turned out, that was okay, because I did have a really good day. Now, my only worry is that other people didn't.

Lauren's friends came yesterday, from PA. They (Theresa, Christy, Evan) got here, and we hung out for a few minutes before Kim came over. As soon as Kim got here, it changed, for the worse. Kim hates Theresa for reasons that I'm not going to broadcast over the internet. And, due to this fact, Kim refuses to be in the same room as Theresa. I sat in Lauren's room with T, Christy and Evan while Lauren sat in the living room with Kim and Erica. This was for at least an hour, I'd say. Theresa was angry (justifiably so!) and I was feeling very stressed and frustrated with the situation. But, being the "make everybody happy" type of person that I am, I was agreeable. I helped the guests find parking (where they later got towed from! uff! I feel so terrible about that!) and get to the T, because Christy and Evan were going to a concert at the Fleet center. Then I came back home, just in time to meet Lauren and Kim on their way to Boston common to see "Carmen." Soo, I went upstairs and spent the next five hours or so with Theresa.

Theresa is a really amazing person. I really loved her. She's great. We talked for a long time. We had some dinner, and we watched "Playing By Heart." It was just really really good to have someone to talk to. I love people that are so friendly and open and that have so much incredible beauty to share. Yay for new people! Hehe, she's super cute too :-)

Lauren eventually came home, and so did Christy and Evan (after getting their car towed etc etc etc). And we hung out for a while. So much gayness! Just the way we all like it too. They even sang happy birthday to me in the elevator on our way upstairs.

It was good. They made me feel good. I miss hanging out with lots of people and just having a good time. It's been so long since that has happened with my own friends. Arg.

So, no, my birthday was not at all what I wanted it to be, but there was adventure, good times, hugs, and...peace of mind.