The world is a sad place
Wednesday, Oct. 02, 2002 16:59

Nothing is going right for anyone right now. There's no happiness around me. And there's no happiness in my own life. And I'm so frustrated and sad because I don't know how to fix it. I'm so alone, and so bored, and have so little of an idea of what I can possibly do about any of it.

Sad thing #1 (these are in no particular order): Sarah's dog died. I never met the dog, and I don't really know Sarah that well, but it is still making me quite sad, since I had been following the progress of the dog on her livejournal. Poor Fozzie, and Sarah.

Sad thing #2: I am really worried about a friend of mine. I can't say a whole lot more than that. But I feel like things are sort of falling apart, and I don't even know if she realizes that they are. I miss her a lot and I wish I could swoop down and fix everything, but I can't :-( This is probably the thing making me the saddest.

Sad thing #3: I'm talking to my mom now. She keeps talking and talking about whatever is going on for her. It's so clear that she needs someone to talk to. It's not like she's talking about me because she wants to know about me, because she misses me. But I think it's because nobody at home listens to her. I just hate thinking about it. Those of you who read frequently know how I feel about this situation. I am not going to continue to beat it to death at the present moment.

Sad thing #4: My life is excruciatingly boring and meaningless. Next.

sad thing #5: I'm gaining weight again. Arrrrrrrrr. I got some clothes today...have to return a pair of pants. This is infinitely frustrating. I hate it. HATE.

Sad Thing #6: Everyone is sick! Lauren, Theresa and Christy (along with Theresa's brothers) have mono. Beck and Kim both have the cold from hell. :-(

Sad Thing #7: I'm listening to Melissa Etheridge talk about her love troubles

Sad thing #8: Christy's grandfather died. :-(

And in general terms, everything is just so gloomy. There's nothing happy anywhere near me! Did I mention how lonely I am? Yeah. I miss so many things and so many people. I just...arg. So lost.