I want my mommy
Saturday, Nov. 02, 2002 12:43

I haven't seen my house, or driven a car, or hugged my nieces, or slept in my own bed, or been to the ocean, or used the guide + menu in almost two months.

For some people homesickness makes them sad when they're away. For me, I get homesick if I'm sad while I'm away. If I'm happy and content and fully enjoying my surroundings, I don't get homesick. If I'm not happy with the way my life is going, I get homesick.

I try to be strong and make the best of everything around me. I try to ignore the fact that home is everything to me. But if I don't have anything to distraact myself with, it becomes increasingly difficult.

I'm feeling homesick this weekend. I wish I was home. I wish I was driving around...even by myself, I don't mind. I wish I could go to bullmoose and flagship and brunswick...maybe even portland.

Last spring I didn't get homesick at any point. It was so good! I just spent all this time hanging out with Jeff and Lala and having so much fun. I didn't go home for months at a time and I was absolutely fine with that.

I had a crummy summer. And there's nothing good to remember about that. So I thought that would be a good excuse to keep myself from getting homesick too. Plus I have past precedence.

But nope. I wanna go home and lay in bed with my mommy.

At home I don't have the stress of this crazy domestic war that's going on at my feet. I don't have to worry about what happens if I forget to clean the bathroom this weekend, or if I don't feel like cleaning my dishes. I don't have to worry about the traffic and the sidewalk construction.

I'm starting to have to fight off tears. So I need to stop.

But I miss home. And I miss Adrianna and Rosalie so much....I cried when I had to say goodbye to Adrianna. Oh gosh...that girl....