Graciousness
Saturday, Nov. 23, 2002 14:15

I can't wait to see Ani in March because after last night, I need something to make me feel magical. Last night wasn't magical. It was good. There's no way around it. Ani could never not be good. But with a broken foot, she wasn't up to par. Plus, I was really uncomfortable, and that detracted a lot from the experience.

I also just watched Alanis on the Caroline Rhea show. Oh how I do love Alanis. I hope she comes back soon. I want to see her again, so badly.

I wish Ani had done more older stuff though. I wished she would play "Both Hands." I heart that song. Maybe in March?

And then there's Melissa. Words cannot express...

Magic is good to have. I miss those magical concerts with Tiffany that are raised to this amazing plateau of beautiful emotion. Tiff is the best person ever to go to concerts with. I'm quite jealous of Suzy for getting to sit next to her in march. Oh well. I have my wifey! I love my wifey! and I've never been to a concert with her, so who knows?

Tonight is my turn to make magic. Sometimes I question the part I have in the whole music-making process. I think that it would be the same without me. But...that's ok. Because it's also about me, and how it makes me feel to sing, and to be immersed in the sound.

My parents will be here soon. They're coming for the concert. Yay! I love my mom. We had a nice little chat on the phone earlier, and that was nice.

I'm looking ahead right now, and feeling so good. I'm enjoying the people around me....Lauren, Theresa, Naomi, Christy, Emily, Vanessa, Megan, Beck, my mom... even though not everyone is physically around me, I can feel them. And I'm enjoying the presence of these new people. I've enjoying how much they can show me, and how much I can reveal to them. It's new and exciting, and there are so many new levels of human connection that can be reached.

As far as events. Here's what's in my head: visiting Amanda for spring break (remind me to talk to Tiff about this....or wait, I'll check the USM calendar online in a bit...), Blue Crush party when it comes out, and I buy it (probably the same day...I'm wicked obsessed), Watching Etheridge and Alanis with Tiff when we're home (Tiff, I miss you, if you're out there..), Seeing Floyd, Seeing SERENA!!!!!, Ani in March, Maybe Melissa Ferrick (must check ticket prices next), and Thanksgiving with my family next week.

Life is good. Thank you, everyone, for making my life good. Even if I don't know you. Your existence makes me better. People make me better. So thank you. And I'm sorry for all the times when I've been irrationally bag-like. And if you ever need anything, I'm here.

I love.