Thanksgiving time
Wednesday, Nov. 27, 2002 11:47

I'm getting ready to leave now. I hate that whenever I have to get ready to go somewhere I always either cut it really short and then get really nervous about whether or not I'm going to make it, or I give myself way too much time, and I end up sitting here feeling really anxious.

I woke up early this morning (7:45ish) and looked out my window and saw snow! how sweet it is! I think it must have been the snow that energized me, but if not, then whatever it was did a really good job. I'm in a really good mood. I'm really nervous about this little trip out to Beverly, but my mood is still excellent. I cleaned up my shit, and created a nice little guest room for Lauren's family. They should be arriving later tonight to take over our apartment for the weekend. I don't care if they use my stuff... I'm not going to be here anyway.

Tonight I'll be trying to kill time at Betsey's house. There probably won't be too much excitement going on there. Not until tomorrow. Then tomorrow is the feast, at which many many members of my family will be present. Oh well, at least I get the opportunity to be the first to arrive, then I can just sit back and watch the family trickle in. I could make bets on who gets there first and last. Hrm. that would be something to entertain myself.

I like this song a lot "Said Sadly" I think it is by Veruca Salt and Nina Gordon, but that might be wrong. If you know, let me know.

I wanted to make a mix cd to bring with me on the train and bus back, but I forgot. Oh well. I'm going to get myself up on the Melissa Ferrick... getting ready for the concert. Maybe I'll check out what bull moose has this weekend too.

I never know what to say to my family. What do they want me to talk about? Certain personal things are off limits. And certain things are just far too pointless to discuss. So what do I do to help keep conversation going? I swear that I'll be spending my life trying to figure out how to talk to these people. That's why I'm nervous. It seems like two days with family is an awful lot of time to fill. I wish I was just going home to be with Tiff and Serena now. And Amanda. But she isn't there this time. I miss her so much. SOOO much. Eh. Oh well. This family stuff is good for me, I suppose. And who knows? It doesn't have to be difficult and awkward, it could be really fun.

We shall see how things pan out. In the meantime, I'm going to hope for internet reinforcement to keep me going.