Self-esteem boosters
Thursday, Dec. 05, 2002 19:12

I don't feel bad about the fact that I've been home all day, and that I've accomplished very little. And that is a HUGE step for me. I'm so bad about that. I'm very hard on myself.

I talked to Linda today. And it didn't really phase me. And I felt very free, and witty, and not the usual emotional shell of a person that I usually am with her. And that makes me feel good.

And so many people have been loving me today. And I've really needed it lately. My self-esteem has gone into the crapper over the past summer and fall. But there are some new people in my life right now that are making things much better. There's very little that can make me feel better than someone making me feel worth their time, effort, and love.

So thank you to those who loved me today and last night. It's been really good.

And thank you to those who won't let me insult myself. Because you're right, even if I'm joking, I'm usually quite serious.

I just ran and jumped and skipped around the apartment. I feel good being alone right now. I can be much more spastic without anyone seeing just how spastic I am. Oh, if they only knew!

Some days I wish for someone to understand me. I want someone who knows me inside and out, who totally gets me, and can predict the way I will react to things. Maybe someday. It certainly hasn't happened yet...

Anywho. It's almost survivor time!