I'm ready
Saturday, Jan. 04, 2003 16:33

I only have a few minutes. Kim is in the shower. She probably won't be too long. But she told me yesterday that I should update. And I really should. It has been since Christmas Day.

In my livejournal yesterday, I wrote about Kim. She's mine now. Well, as much mine as she can be, right. I'm not sure where I stand on ownership of people, in general. But anyway... somebody left me an anonoymous comment asking if I was a lesbian. Hrm. Well. I'm not sure who would have asked that. I wonder if it was someone I know. I hate it when people are cowardly and don't identify themselves. Like I care if you ask. I have a girlfriend. I'm talking about her. I'm obviously not going to be offended.

On another note, what is it with girls named Kim? ha! I just thought of one more, but I lost it. But either way, there's still Lauren's Kim (whom have recently broken up...). Plus, I used to read this girl's dland a lot, and she had a gf named Kim too. Updating here reminded me of that. I've grown so accustomed to reading what people have to say about their girlfriends. Never before have I felt the freedom and comfort to write about my own. But then again, technically, I haven't had one since I started this journal. Friends with benefits that I fall hopelessly in love with don't really count now do they?

I'm wearing her ring. The other night she took it back for a little while. And I felt naked. I don't want to take it off. I love the way it looks on my finger. I love how her name is engraved in the inside, so that if I ever want to see it, I can just take it off for a second.

Life is good right now. It feels a little tipsy. Things are complicated. But when are they not? I wish that I was standing on more solid ground, being more sure of myself, and of what is going to come of my life in the next few months. But I can always wish for something more than I have. And right now I don't want to wish for anything more. because I love what I have.

I'm definitely back at school. Classes start on Monday. I think that's a good thing. I think I'm ready to be in class now. I wasn't ready all of last quarter. But now I feel more ready. Like now that my life has more to it, and that I've gotten a recharge of love and friendship at home, I can just be me, and just be happy about that. It's good to be back here. I like it. And it's good to be able to remember people like Tiff and Serena that will always love me and be there for me, and care for me in a way that I haven't really found anywhere around here, as far as friends go.

I think I dont' even want to go anywhere today. I want to lay down in bed and feel her. But I think we might take a trip to petco or something. And we're gonna make shepherd's pie too. weeee!

So there you have it, an update. Just for you.