mmmteeandess
Saturday, Feb. 01, 2003 17:44

Sometimes i really enjoy the sound of music coming through my computer when I have headphones on. It's so nice! It's so uninterrupted. It's good. Good good shit.

I feel really crappy today. I'm very tired, but not sleepy. I have a headache, and my throat is a bit raw. I just have a general feeling of having no energy, and my stomach has definitely had it's bad moments too.

*sigh*

I feel so loving... I feel like I wanna reach out and hug everyone.

But there's nobody around me that's in a state of mind to accept it.

I don't like it when people are in bad moods, or when they're angry and sad. And that may sound like a wicked selfish thing to say, but it's not entirely like that. I just hate it when I can't do anything to make something better. I hate it when someone can't just relax and have fun because they're wrapped up in shit. Because I know that I hate it when I feel like it. And I never know what the right thing to do or say is. hm. I am not good at knowing how people will feel about the things that I say, or how they'll react. I think maybe I don't get to know people well enough? I dunno...

Just some more social ineptness...

I'm listening to Tegan and Sara "This is Everything" over and over. And I'm sitting on the couch in the living room. And I'm talking to Lauren over AIM... while she's sitting about 10 feet away from me. But hey man, I have headphones on.

I love the words:

"climbed up on the rainbow
just to see if I’d fall off
I’m a frosted lemon carrot
and I don’t know how
no don’t know to hold you
without shaking
no I’m not aware of how
I could possibly love you
without aching
yes I give you everything
yes I give you anything
I gave you everything
gotta watch myself
I’ve gotta love myself
and take care
and so keep the light on before
ya hop into bed
cos, baby, this is the last
honest look I’ll ever give
I saved up all my sunshine
just to see you more clear
I’m a little short on solar
and I haven’t given in
no I’m going to hold you anyway
and I’ll do it without shaking
yes I’ll love you always
and I’ll do it without aching
yes I’d give you anything
yes I’d give you anything
I gave you everything
gotta watch myself
I’ve gotta love myself
and take care
and so keep the light on before
ya hop into bed
cos, baby, this is the last
honest look I’ll ever give
I give you everything
I give you anything
I gave you everything
gotta watch my self
I’ve gotta love myself
and take care
yeah
gave you
I gave you
I gave you everything
so I’ve gotta watch myself
and love myself
and take care
this is your last look
this is your last look
this is your last look
yeah this is your last look
this is your last look
this is your last look
and so keep the light on before
ya hop into bed
cos, baby, this is the last
honest look I’ll ever give"

mmmsooogood.

I heart Tegan and Sara!

Okay... so that's it. Or well, all I wanna say.