The landslide brought me down
Sunday, Feb. 16, 2003 10:37

As I said in my last entry, I have been so completely emotional lately. It's pretty insane. Most of it has been negative emotion, but there has been the occasional good emotion.... talking on the phone with my mom, Kimi coming in the middle of the night..

Yesterday was really rough. I got incredibly upset with Kim... mainly because I thought she was getting upset with me when it was really nothing. And then she got upset, and i got more upset and it was ugly. But I sat next to her while she was laying on the couch and talked to her, and she made me feel better... better in the kind of relieving way that makes you laugh, and want to run around getting out all of the built-up emotion because your heart feels so good and so free. So things are fine now. Well besides the fact that I'm apparently a wicked bed hog :-( hrmph. How does one cure herself of this?

This entry was sparked by reading cards from Kimi and La, and feeling like I was gonna cry. So many wonderful words. So many wonderful things. So much love. So many things that I feel but never knew were reciprocated (on La's part anyway). I kinda wanna just quote both cards here, but I'm not going to because they are mine and they are special. They made me really happy though. It's good to be valued.

Katie's coming over tonight to catch up. This is a good thing, since we haven't talked in a really long time. I hope I have energy though. I haven't had much energy at all lately. uff. Although there was a point yesterday where I thought I was going to suffocate and/or have a breakdown if I didn't get outside.

I hope I'm in a better mood today. I think I am. We'll see though. We'll see.