#1
Dear you,
I hate how everything changed. I hate how there is no time left for me. I hate how I never seem to hear from you, and you seem to have no interest in my life. I hate that we're not close anymore, and I hate that no matter what we do, we can't seem to fix it. I hate that we both seem to have given up at this point. I miss it all so much... the easy way we got along, the things we did together, the times we spent, the joking, nicknaming, craziness. God, I miss us.
#2
Hi. You told me you missed me and it got me thinking. And I haven't stopped since. You were so intense. Like a drug. And I detoxed. But I can't help that everytime I get a whiff, the craving is still there.
#3
Dear you,
If you love me so much, answer my goddamn emails. Don't you know I need you?
#4
Dear higher power,
Please get my dad in for surgery sooner rather than later. Please let him be okay. Please don't let him die yet. I'm not ready. And, also, if he gets through this, please remind him to be this nice to me all the time.
#5
I wonder about you everyday. My heart skips a beat when I see you. I panic and turn my face, hoping that you're looking at me (although I know you aren't). I think you still read this journal, and sometimes that's the only reason I write here. I am curious about the most intimate details of your life. But, I can honestly say, that I don't miss being yours. I can honestly say that I do not want to go back. It's just that you scare me into this unresolved place. And I wish, so badly, to get it resolved. I think, however, that I need to just let it go.
22:42 - Friday, Mar. 09, 2007
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