I think moving forward makes me look back. Suddenly all of the drama, bullshit and unhappiness seems so trivial. I wonder how exes are doing these days and wish we were friends (sometimes almost contacting them to ask--how are you anyway? I still care). I miss a friendship that has lapsed and wonder if I gave up too soon (I know she is a good person). My perspective is changing-- hopefully growing wider-- and it feels like time to do some cleaning, reorganizing, and inviting (welcome back!).
I am one recommendation, one personal statement, a standardized test, $95, and an acceptance letter away from going back to school. I have been assuming right along that I am a good candidate, and I am likely to get into this program, but I am getting scared now.
This weekend is Edie Carey at Club Passim. It feels like it has been an eternity since my last concert. I am glad I let my fiscal responsibility and savings plans slip for long enough to invest in those tickets. Life is more than responsibility. My soul needs nourishing.
Next week is my birthday. For my birthday, we are going car-shopping. Hopefully by the end of next weekend, my love and I will be zipping around in a little civic or corolla of our very own. It's a step, and I have been getting occasional bouts of cold feet.
This week I began the Couch to 5K program. A runner, I may never be, but I'm sure as hell going to try. This falls nicely in line with other health goals which will hopefully help me get to a place where I feel good and can safely become pregnant (I expect that this will take years).
I'm slowly changing. At each bend I have the opportunity to look back for a minute. I always wonder what X would be like in this new skin.
11:52 - Wednesday, Sept. 12, 2007
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